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Sunday, September 23, 2007
Do you know why I dun often update my blog recently?
I can say that I had go thro the super down period of my life. I face bad time at my work, family and ministry. I totally lost my passion in life and compassion for people. Just like a dry bone walking around. I am so emotional down everyday. A bit of thing dun go well I will be so angry and sian. Therefore I decided to distance myself from people because I dun want to get offend by them or affect their mood. I keep my little faith in Christ that this will come to an end. Praise the Lord ! He had never leave me nor forsake me. He go thro this dry period with me. He picked me UP from the valley before I give up.
On 16 sept, the 16th church anniversary is my turning point. These 4 months, in and out the service not get refresh (even how hard I focus myself to connect with the Lord). At this service, I was a bit tired because I travel for the whole morning. I came with a low mood. No strength to give praise. Worship time, my tear just flood down. I can’t control it and my mind just went blank. I also dun know why. I just cry and cry for few songs. I stop crying when the worship ended. My heart feels so light after that. I ask God -WHY.God used my heart to tell me that the crying moment is to release ur 4 months of stresses. During the preaching god use Pastor PN to impacts a new faith into my heart. My died body can be alive when I put my faith in Christ Jesus.
Everything changes when I step out of the service. I am a transform person by that divine exchange moment.
Currently
In Work
I am confirmed in my new dept CFD and I am learning new things there. Bye Bye to Margin. Hee.. at usual I made mistake again. But I am new bird so got excuse. This cant used it for too long so I need to improve.
With Friends
I enjoy spending time with them. Today we met to go church wedding together. Hee… I was late; they want to take cab from tampine mrt to the church. I pleased them not. I dun want to waste $ on cab. They agreed. So I decide to serve them during the tea time. Take food and water for them. They happy I also happy. After that I shopped with them a while then went off.
With Family
I am not an angry person that vents my anger on them. On my way home, I accidentally met my younger sis at Jurong and we went and took Neo print together. My Sis Neo paid the $$. What I do is to enjoy posing with her. She accompany me to a nokia road show. Some of the people knew that my sony hp will auto shut down at times. Whenever I passes by starhub shop I will check on this model 6288 pricing. So far the lowest
I saw is $38 with trade in. But I still say NO. The reason why I still dun sign up is because I am praying for this moment to come quickly. THE ZERO DALLOR WITH ANY PLAN. (Actually I gave God a date line is at 9 aug. He told me to wait for the right timing. When that day came you will have greater Joy than having it on national day.) After I bought the Hp for 5 min my friend call me to confirm our dinner gathering for tomorrow. It was a conference call, I overheard that my fiend Ying told my another friend Wu who is also her insurance agent that she can’t pay up her baby policy. The friend Ying is going thro divorce so she is facing $ crisis. Friend Wu had no mercy on her, she keep pushing her try to raise the $. Friend Wu talks a lot rubbish reason why she need to pay up. I got very disappointed by Wu’s action. Deep in me, I wanted to help but my pay will only come in after 7 days. Not enough time to pass the $$ to her because we are meeting tomorrow. At that moment my heart told me to sell away my Hp and get $ to bless her. So I sold my sony k70i @ $150. The way God answered prayer is so amazing. It is beyond human understanding. God already plan up everything nicely for us. All we need is to be patient and wait for the green light then you will receive the MAX JOY. The joy never just stop here it goes on. I call Mrs Neo out to meet me at JE. I wanted to treat her for movie 881. Do you know what she bought me pop corn. I have a dream. I hope to eat a box of pop corn all by myself and pay for zero cents. In my 24 years of living this thing never happens until today. This also means I no need to wait for my future bf to fulfill my dream because my mum did it. Hee…..
Commerce Break:
OK. By now you will know I am very thrifty in 3 things.
-Money spends on transport
-Money spends on IT stuffs
-Money spends on food
BUT I am not stingy on spending money to bless people and improving myself.
Ministry
I am going to start my English class on Monday. I am taking grammar and fur next (dun know how to spell) .Wanting to improve my English is also my dream. With good English, I can do more things for God. Speak the gospel more clearly; Write a better sentence in my blog to inspire more people. I know my posts got a lot of grammar and spell mistake.
My dear reader, please Ta han a bit more. I am going to improve. I hope what I wrote today still can inspire you. I dig out my heart to Share with you that darkness will turn into rainbow when you put your faith in Christ Jesus and start to pray.
Prayer really WORK not just in me But it will WORK in YOU TOO!
StOP COMPLAINING.
-If you still want to do that, I am sure that when the cows come home you will still be in the darkness.
Want to see RAINBOW?
-Start getting down your knee to pray. God answer your prayers no matter who you are. Do not hesitated any longer God is always ready to hear from you.
I can say that I had go thro the super down period of my life. I face bad time at my work, family and ministry. I totally lost my passion in life and compassion for people. Just like a dry bone walking around. I am so emotional down everyday. A bit of thing dun go well I will be so angry and sian. Therefore I decided to distance myself from people because I dun want to get offend by them or affect their mood. I keep my little faith in Christ that this will come to an end. Praise the Lord ! He had never leave me nor forsake me. He go thro this dry period with me. He picked me UP from the valley before I give up.
On 16 sept, the 16th church anniversary is my turning point. These 4 months, in and out the service not get refresh (even how hard I focus myself to connect with the Lord). At this service, I was a bit tired because I travel for the whole morning. I came with a low mood. No strength to give praise. Worship time, my tear just flood down. I can’t control it and my mind just went blank. I also dun know why. I just cry and cry for few songs. I stop crying when the worship ended. My heart feels so light after that. I ask God -WHY.God used my heart to tell me that the crying moment is to release ur 4 months of stresses. During the preaching god use Pastor PN to impacts a new faith into my heart. My died body can be alive when I put my faith in Christ Jesus.
Everything changes when I step out of the service. I am a transform person by that divine exchange moment.
Currently
In Work
I am confirmed in my new dept CFD and I am learning new things there. Bye Bye to Margin. Hee.. at usual I made mistake again. But I am new bird so got excuse. This cant used it for too long so I need to improve.
With Friends
I enjoy spending time with them. Today we met to go church wedding together. Hee… I was late; they want to take cab from tampine mrt to the church. I pleased them not. I dun want to waste $ on cab. They agreed. So I decide to serve them during the tea time. Take food and water for them. They happy I also happy. After that I shopped with them a while then went off.
With Family
I am not an angry person that vents my anger on them. On my way home, I accidentally met my younger sis at Jurong and we went and took Neo print together. My Sis Neo paid the $$. What I do is to enjoy posing with her. She accompany me to a nokia road show. Some of the people knew that my sony hp will auto shut down at times. Whenever I passes by starhub shop I will check on this model 6288 pricing. So far the lowest
I saw is $38 with trade in. But I still say NO. The reason why I still dun sign up is because I am praying for this moment to come quickly. THE ZERO DALLOR WITH ANY PLAN. (Actually I gave God a date line is at 9 aug. He told me to wait for the right timing. When that day came you will have greater Joy than having it on national day.) After I bought the Hp for 5 min my friend call me to confirm our dinner gathering for tomorrow. It was a conference call, I overheard that my fiend Ying told my another friend Wu who is also her insurance agent that she can’t pay up her baby policy. The friend Ying is going thro divorce so she is facing $ crisis. Friend Wu had no mercy on her, she keep pushing her try to raise the $. Friend Wu talks a lot rubbish reason why she need to pay up. I got very disappointed by Wu’s action. Deep in me, I wanted to help but my pay will only come in after 7 days. Not enough time to pass the $$ to her because we are meeting tomorrow. At that moment my heart told me to sell away my Hp and get $ to bless her. So I sold my sony k70i @ $150. The way God answered prayer is so amazing. It is beyond human understanding. God already plan up everything nicely for us. All we need is to be patient and wait for the green light then you will receive the MAX JOY. The joy never just stop here it goes on. I call Mrs Neo out to meet me at JE. I wanted to treat her for movie 881. Do you know what she bought me pop corn. I have a dream. I hope to eat a box of pop corn all by myself and pay for zero cents. In my 24 years of living this thing never happens until today. This also means I no need to wait for my future bf to fulfill my dream because my mum did it. Hee…..
Commerce Break:
OK. By now you will know I am very thrifty in 3 things.
-Money spends on transport
-Money spends on IT stuffs
-Money spends on food
BUT I am not stingy on spending money to bless people and improving myself.
Ministry
I am going to start my English class on Monday. I am taking grammar and fur next (dun know how to spell) .Wanting to improve my English is also my dream. With good English, I can do more things for God. Speak the gospel more clearly; Write a better sentence in my blog to inspire more people. I know my posts got a lot of grammar and spell mistake.
My dear reader, please Ta han a bit more. I am going to improve. I hope what I wrote today still can inspire you. I dig out my heart to Share with you that darkness will turn into rainbow when you put your faith in Christ Jesus and start to pray.
Prayer really WORK not just in me But it will WORK in YOU TOO!
StOP COMPLAINING.
-If you still want to do that, I am sure that when the cows come home you will still be in the darkness.
Want to see RAINBOW?
-Start getting down your knee to pray. God answer your prayers no matter who you are. Do not hesitated any longer God is always ready to hear from you.
Shi Yan at 4:22 AM
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Friday, September 21, 2007
Allow me to be longwinded tonight. I haven’t been blogging for sometime.
This afternoon, I went for my phillip fellowship. In this gathering, a dealer aka a preacher in FMCA just came back from a mission trip. She shares with us about how their church missionary in some where near Russia met this Indian man and start a church there. The testimony is so touching. At that point of time what hit me is thankfulness. I am so happy that I am in HOPE church. This is a good church. My church also believe in planting churches is a way to fulfill the great commission.
Tonight is also my distant mission night. I learn a lot from my idol. He shared with us abt Destiny. WOW! What hit me was point 2. At the end time the most popular place will be the CHURCH. People will stream to go church. I know this sentence but still cant fully agreed. Tonight, I catch this sentence in my heart. I can visualize it. Church is the answer to our life purpose. Church will be more popular than any other things on earth.-Even my Korea/Taiwan Drama.
At the response time, i ask myself what I can do for mission.
I want to give to support mission but I am not rich or I dun have a business mind. I am a normal office girl. I am not good in WOG too. I ask these questions in a positive mind. What other thing I can do? What am I good at? I pray and ask God.
“God what can I do for mission tell me please?” Never ask this question to him before.
Hmm… I can encourage people. So I want to grow in this area.
With immediate response, I want to thank Muthu(our guest Indian missionary for the night) for blessing us a great testimony. I supported him by buying a very nice box and encourage him that god will use him to send out India missionary to bless the other nation. I always believe the power of gift.So I took out my one and only pack of Malaysia branded coffee from my bag and gave it to him. Although is a pack but I hope this will make him feel warm in his heart when he drink it.
This is just a beginning on how I can support. Maybe I can read out more on how to use this gift to support mission. India is a poor country but christians there also want to do great thing for God. How can Singaporean dun do anything. We can do more things because of what we have.
P/s: My idol, you are a great leader. You did what you said. You share with us that you want to help the distant to reach this 4 levels.
level 1 awareness
level 2 capturing
level 3 equipping
level 4 sending/going
You are doing it well. We the Y, YY and YYY catch it.
This afternoon, I went for my phillip fellowship. In this gathering, a dealer aka a preacher in FMCA just came back from a mission trip. She shares with us about how their church missionary in some where near Russia met this Indian man and start a church there. The testimony is so touching. At that point of time what hit me is thankfulness. I am so happy that I am in HOPE church. This is a good church. My church also believe in planting churches is a way to fulfill the great commission.
Tonight is also my distant mission night. I learn a lot from my idol. He shared with us abt Destiny. WOW! What hit me was point 2. At the end time the most popular place will be the CHURCH. People will stream to go church. I know this sentence but still cant fully agreed. Tonight, I catch this sentence in my heart. I can visualize it. Church is the answer to our life purpose. Church will be more popular than any other things on earth.-Even my Korea/Taiwan Drama.
At the response time, i ask myself what I can do for mission.
I want to give to support mission but I am not rich or I dun have a business mind. I am a normal office girl. I am not good in WOG too. I ask these questions in a positive mind. What other thing I can do? What am I good at? I pray and ask God.
“God what can I do for mission tell me please?” Never ask this question to him before.
Hmm… I can encourage people. So I want to grow in this area.
With immediate response, I want to thank Muthu(our guest Indian missionary for the night) for blessing us a great testimony. I supported him by buying a very nice box and encourage him that god will use him to send out India missionary to bless the other nation. I always believe the power of gift.So I took out my one and only pack of Malaysia branded coffee from my bag and gave it to him. Although is a pack but I hope this will make him feel warm in his heart when he drink it.
This is just a beginning on how I can support. Maybe I can read out more on how to use this gift to support mission. India is a poor country but christians there also want to do great thing for God. How can Singaporean dun do anything. We can do more things because of what we have.
P/s: My idol, you are a great leader. You did what you said. You share with us that you want to help the distant to reach this 4 levels.
level 1 awareness
level 2 capturing
level 3 equipping
level 4 sending/going
You are doing it well. We the Y, YY and YYY catch it.
Shi Yan at 1:42 AM
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
I can’t sleep.
I am so FAN.
Now I got a big headache to stay in MARGIN dept or move to CFD dept.
On Monday is my first day in CFD. I sprain my back and rest at home for 3 days.
In these 3 days my old neighbor can’t cope at all. She got problem teaching the new staff and cant partner with him well. She told me that she requested to my boss to ask me stay back and trf the new guy to CFD.
Now my Heart is half want to stay in MARGIN and half wants to go CFD.
Reason to stay in margin is i know everything and comfortable working with my old neighbor. But is the new neighbor that hinter me to stay on.
Reason to go CFD is a better career but i need to learn everything again also needs to build up the relationship with my new partners.
Aiyo, How? i guess my boss will talk to me tomorrow.
I had prayed for an hour.
Lord, lead me to make the correct choice.
I am so FAN.
Now I got a big headache to stay in MARGIN dept or move to CFD dept.
On Monday is my first day in CFD. I sprain my back and rest at home for 3 days.
In these 3 days my old neighbor can’t cope at all. She got problem teaching the new staff and cant partner with him well. She told me that she requested to my boss to ask me stay back and trf the new guy to CFD.
Now my Heart is half want to stay in MARGIN and half wants to go CFD.
Reason to stay in margin is i know everything and comfortable working with my old neighbor. But is the new neighbor that hinter me to stay on.
Reason to go CFD is a better career but i need to learn everything again also needs to build up the relationship with my new partners.
Aiyo, How? i guess my boss will talk to me tomorrow.
I had prayed for an hour.
Lord, lead me to make the correct choice.
Labels: Where i belong?
Shi Yan at 1:34 AM
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Hmmm....................
Hmmm............
Have you calm down?
Nowadays I dun pick up call. Hee….. I agreed this sentence.
There are 2 reasons why I dun pick call.
First reason is the hp is on silent mode and I dun always check my hp. I am either working or deeply watching tv.
Second reason is I am too lazy to talk so I dun pick call.
Of Course the reason why I dun pick up ur call yesterday is the first reason. I am watching why why love on the youtube. Heee…. So…..
After returning the calling ,I cant enjoy my show. Cant sleep well at night.
WHY?
Every times you will be there when I need you. But I always not there for U. Sight….
This morning when I wake up, I keep on checking my HP lei. Every CALLS and SMS are picked up or reply immediately.
if you not so “Hot” can test me ok. Hee…..
Read ur blog le, you are not touch by word and i am not good to say this in word
Hmmm............
Have you calm down?
Nowadays I dun pick up call. Hee….. I agreed this sentence.
There are 2 reasons why I dun pick call.
First reason is the hp is on silent mode and I dun always check my hp. I am either working or deeply watching tv.
Second reason is I am too lazy to talk so I dun pick call.
Of Course the reason why I dun pick up ur call yesterday is the first reason. I am watching why why love on the youtube. Heee…. So…..
After returning the calling ,I cant enjoy my show. Cant sleep well at night.
WHY?
Every times you will be there when I need you. But I always not there for U. Sight….
This morning when I wake up, I keep on checking my HP lei. Every CALLS and SMS are picked up or reply immediately.
if you not so “Hot” can test me ok. Hee…..
Read ur blog le, you are not touch by word and i am not good to say this in word
So i give gift and do the action out.
u like it?
Reason why i buy it.
What i want to say is SXXXX
u like it?
Reason why i buy it.
What i want to say is SXXXX
Labels: Creative call...
Shi Yan at 3:40 PM
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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
26Aug SARFA RUN
This Day is a great day for me. Have been trainning so hard for this BIG DAY.
My objective for running is to see how long i take to finish 6km. I set my goal is less than an hour. I also expect after the jog to get a cert.
The SKY is clear, the weather is COOL and the Air is Fresh.
Both of us are also in the crowd
BANG! Everyone start running. WOW! Amy , Shulin, Larine and myself was running together at first. After few meter we have different speed. Amy and shulin is fast runner so they ran ahead. I just jog on my comfortable speed. I looked back and saw larine was a bit behind us so i decided to slow down and jog with her. Timing at that moment is no more so important to me. All i knew is Larine and myself need to complete the race together. Throughout this 6km we jog slowly together.
Our Last 250M.
Larine did it. She Finished the 6KM. (CLAPX3)
HOW IS YOUR RUN?
This is the question people ask me after the run. Hee.... This is a hard to ans because it is not a few sentences to describe this run.
Although this run is not within the timing i had set and NO CERT but i still enjoy it. This is a meaningful run. Larine finished the race and i guess uncle is very happy about it. Slowing down can make 2 more people to be happy why not. No matter sport race or spiritual race, i hope i can finished it with my love ones.
P/S: Fu, heard that you also waited for your friend right? I guess you know the feeling i am talking abt ba. Hee... ....
Labels: Not how fast you finish but is how many ppl finish together with you.
Shi Yan at 12:05 PM
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